| Jul. 9th, 2007 @ 09:54 pm d'ya know what, shit's pretty good |
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Current Mood:  happy
Current Music: happy home - Garbage
Well it's taken a hell of a long time & a lot of hard work & a whole heap of emotional shit but I'm getting into a damn fine place in my life.
I finally feel like I'm at a point in life where it's 90% sorted & the rest will fall into place when it's ready, but I'm in no hurry, things are good, it's time to sit back & enjoy myself a bit :D
Work was REALLY tough at first, the shear shock to my system of being back out surrounded by people all day, their ambitions, tensions & emotions felt like they were drowning me out & I got so very anxious & lost in it since I didn't know them at all so had no idea what was driving it at all.
Now I'm getting to know people & becoming more confident in the work I'm doing & you know what, I really really enjoy the work. Working on adult sites is really good fun (least it is when I do it) I delight in putting humour, cheekiness & sexiness into my designs. I dance around the office when no-one's looking (sometimes they catch me at it & I just give them a huge cheesy grin) & see what tongue in cheek fun I can get past my boss & the MD & get to live sites.
I feel more independant, stronger & healthier than I have in years. I finally have money again, I can actually buy myself things without a huge feeling of worry about how much longer my savings will last.
I still have some work to do, my self confidence has suffered a hell of a lot over the time I've been fixing stuff, so I have to rebuild that now that I have the framework to support it, but that will happen, I know it will.
I have a beautiful, amazing boy by my side who gets better & better, we will have been together a year in a month & half and it seems like it's flown by & we've been together for years, both at the same time.
My final thing to sort out is a more permanent place to live, I'm contemplating all sorts of options at the moment as it has to be the right decision, there's been so many major changes in my life for years now that I want to settle properly & just enjoy it for a while...
So yeah, stuff is good - how are you?
PS I'm up for fun, frovolity & frolics so let me know if you want to meet up for a giggle :) Yes, Denny, you're on my list, let me know when's good for you, last week was a bit hectic, sorry I didn't get back to you xx |
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